It’s been a while since I’ve gotten lost.
Lost in a person, that is.
I haven’t felt the urge to get lost like I want to in you.
You are something so different, but isn’t that what I have always said about the last?
This excitement and need to consume you in my life feels so new to me.
The adrenaline that I feel whenever I want to find some way keep you happy never seems to run thin.
It’s so weird. You’re weird.
The weirder it gets, the more I want spend time with you.
I can slowly feel myself entering into your world and it almost feels like I am trespassing.
What have you done to me that intrigues me so much to get lost in you?
You thrill me and it almost scares me.
Moreso excites me.
But I can’t seem to ever figure you out.
Then again, I can’t even seem to figure myself out.
How I got here? Man, you tell me.
I seek more in you than anything else in my world right now.
You say my life is so much better, but I can’t seem to care.
You don’t get it.
Hell, I don’t get how you thrill me.
But I like it.@1 day ago
It’s crazy to look back at all the things that I once had as well as lacked in each relationship. And to remember that each once that was significant was very different from the last. The last one I was serious about, took a toll on me so bad that I couldn’t look at my friendships the same with people anymore. My trust was shattered completely because this one was someone I considered a good ass friend and it made me question everything any friendship entailed when he changed his mind about what he wanted. It made me realize how much more I have to really consider who may or may not stick around in my life. But the one thing that I know that made that relationship special was the fact that we were friends. It had an already built up trust that I didn’t really get to have with my other relationships. And I never realized before him how important that was to me. To be 100% honest and trustworthy to a person. And although I was that much honest with him, sometimes it just doesn’t work the other way around. That’s the unfortunate thing.
With the one before him, there was so much we both had and lacked, but I won’t even go into those details. All I know is the one thing that kept us together for so long was the passion and romance we had.There’s nothing like a relationship that is dramatic like this one was. The romance was unbelievable and I swear it was better than some of the things that you see in the best romance movies. It’s crazy to know that I have been blessed (and cursed at the same time) to experience such an amazing romance.
Now a days, I find myself always anazlyzing the different things about the guys I date. Not necessarily nit-picking at flaws, but just really looking at the different things that I know work and do not work with me. The current situation that I am in is definitely an interesting one. But then again, they all are in the beginning. Neither of us know where this situation is going to take us, but we are kind of just going for the ride. As I think about it sometimes, I know that I have entrusted enough to call it a friendship. But lately I’ve felt that maybe there has been a missing piece. And it didn’t hit me until just a couple days ago to know what it is.
I am the biggest sucker for romance and it’s been quite a long time since I’ve been able to tell one of my infamous romance stories. But I realized this is the one thing that I miss about relationships. I don’t know. I guess you can just say that, I miss the romance. The cute extra effort that someone would put into making you feel that much more special. And in no way do I expect it, but damn do I miss it.@2 weeks ago